Thursday, March 09, 2006
is it true that we all have a mask? a mask that we use to conceal our real identities from others around us? is all that true? i don't know.. one i thing i know is that i have my own mask.. it's stupid.. bcos then ppl around me can't see the REAL me.. and what is the REAL me? i myself dunno.. so weird huh.. i guess that ppl around us might see each and every individual n judge us by who we are and what we are.. some can say that our outer appearance may be our masks.. but i think not.. it's probably how we portray ourselves in front of others.. our first impressions.. and of cos.. how we judge ppl.. how we judge ppl is exactly the same as how others judge us.. (based on a true life account.. sounds retarded rite.. nvm.. hahas.. ) e.g u think this girl's super duper fake la.. EXAMPLE ONLY.. and she super loves to gain attention.. she kicks up a big fuss out of everything.. (e.g today.. haiis.. ) anyway back to the 'story'.. well it's like hmm.. there's tis gal we'll name her A first.. A hates this super fake girl, B. but A jus continues to talk to B like both of them are still friends and not exactly sae enemies as how A tries to portray to her friends.. it's weird la wat i'm saying and all.. i dun even noe what i'm talking about.. it's just that sometimes i wonder how hard can a person try to not be FAKE so that they can say that "I've tried"? haii.. forget it.. ignore this post.. ciaox.. btw. this has nth to do wit the youth event tingy.. 'concealed faces'.. seriously.. jus coincidental la..
Thursday, March 09, 2006;
Sunday, February 12, 2006
boring la now.. hahas.. nth to do.. gonna slp soon.. den gotta go sch 2mr.. sian again lo.. but tt's a student's life rite? hahas.. okay la.. aniwae.. today went to church in e morn.. late for 2nd service.. whoops.. waited for cabby so long but came after like wat. 15 to 20 mins lo.. wateva onli.. hahas.. but in the end reached there not TOO late la harhh.. hees.. listen to pastor talk.. got sense.. copy dwn le..budden i tink i got short attention span.. gg to finish talking tt time my mind kinda like lost conscious of wat pastor was talking.. whoops.. hee.. budden overall sermon was good.. i liked wat he preached today.. useful..hopefully i use it in my daily life seh.. after service went to look for hong.. took so long to find her.. haiis.. budden found her in e end den ask her sum POA stuff cos tmr got test.. scared i fail first poa test lehh.. hmms.. den after tt went to Dom's hse for lunch.. they called macs.. hahas.. my $10 still no change lehh.. wateva onli.. nxt wk den say la.. hahas.. is okayy.. aniwae.. den did finish all my math hw dere.. den asked Sharon and Dom one math qn.. so funni.. they so pro budden dey got wrong lehh.. hahas.. i got correct.. hees.. i pro.. no la.. jkjk.. den dey played a prank on Stanley.. use his msn den go tell Chimene that Stanley likes her.. lol.. den sumhow or rather she dragged Ryan into the picture.. how interesting sehh.. hmms.. aniwae.. back to e picture.. den Stanley was inside e toilet.. dey all play den we laugh like siao.. i laugh till stomach pain.. hee.. den Eugene kept bugging Meredith..slap him la.. aniwae.. den talked to Meredith one on one.. i hate those kinda talks all of a sudden.. make me so upset and all.. sighh.. is like i oso dunno la. hard to xplain.. concerned so mani ppl.. but yet cnnt tell anione.. cos why? later sae den working com hear den cham lehh.. i dunno oso la..but i guess i a bit too kay poh till i tink although i dunno a lot but might hv known a lil too much.. but i'll get over it.. n b4 u know it.. i wanna be like knowing more stuff again.. hahas.. diao me lahh.. hahas.. --- veRa ---yest got masquerade.. quite cool la.. hahas.. din really expect a lot of ppl to come lehh.. seriously.. din regret gg.. onli regretted tt had to go back early.. haiish.. hahas.. is okayy.. although not up to expectations but about 80 people came including the youths.. so yeahh.. cool la.. funny oso.. hee.. den had usher duty.. felt a bit like erhh.. prefect duty lehh.. hees.. i love it la.. to serve God is so cool so fun n so enjoyable.. hahas.. e food not bad la.. not worth my $5 lehh.. hee.. i so noti.. so fat still alwaes talking bout food horhh.. hahas.. aniwae.. some of the masks look fabulous lo.. like Emily's one.. go to www.concealedfaces.blogspot.com and see the purple one and u'll get wat i mean la.. hahas... super nice lo.. i like.. it's handmade believe it or not.. nice la.. gushes.. hahas.. they make till so nice.. i jealous sehh.. hahas.. Gen came back sehh? hahas.. cool.. 2 weeks time she cuming back again.. hahas.. nice to see her la.. hahas.. it's been ages since last saw her so u get the picture.. hahas.. anyway.. gtg liao.. dad chasing me awae.. wahh.. hahas..
Sunday, February 12, 2006;
been so long since i've last updated isn't it? well.. nth much to blog abt anyway la.. i dunno.. life hasn't exactly changed within like 3 mths.. or has it? i dunno.. but is like.. jus kinda pissed off by bloody stuff.. e.g my sister..i dun gettit.. why is it tt more or less everyone in church likes her so much huh? i dun understand tt.. n why is it tt ppl can go to church and can jus i dunno la.. bloody shit her.. act so innocent n kind in front of others when she's actually not.. liar.. makes me feel like calling her a female dog.. haiis.. aniwae.. dun talk bout her.. make new post talk about wat's been happening..
Sunday, February 12, 2006;
Thursday, December 15, 2005
loads to blog about.. let's start wit youth camp..bugger.. youth camp at e beginning made me feel upset.. darn.. so shoots.. wateva.. actually had choir halfwae during camp.. kinda wanna go home.. yet din wanna go choir.. so shoots rite i? haiishh.. wateva.. aniwae.. during camp i experienced God in a slightly different way den usual.. through some signs i guess.. but overall did enjoy camp though i still loved last yr's one more.. sighh. relive the moments.. ... ... ...dey said A.sk, S.eek, K.nock.. i asked.. n God showed me e wae.. what i shld do etc.. He kinda performed a realli great miracle i've been waiting for.. sighh.. how true is He.. ohh.. funnie.. cos i did things i din realli tot i would do.. like climb over a darn high wall.. (actually.. i tot no one could push me up cos of my weight lehh.. hee..).. swing like tarzan over a 'hump'.. lol.. n gosh.. kinda funni lehh.. i was like e last person to swing so i went like.. "I dun want!! horn sound liao.. must go nxt station.. i dun wann!!"den Ben n Leonard were like.. "is okayy.. jus tuck ur legs up.. if u can jus reach this tile (one tile before e one we're suppose to land on) den counted for girls liao"i resisted.."don't wann.. i realli dun wann la.."them..(e grp.. CHARISSA pro la.. she encouraged me.. so did others.. but i like mentioning her name lehh.. hee..)"is okayy la.. u can do it.. even charissa can.."me.. ahh.. jiu ming arhh.. n i swung over.. ben n leonard.."see.. u did better den charissa summore.. okayy.. now u can go to ur nxt station.. "ahhahahah.. funni mann.. ohh well.. got some scratches on my hand n knee while climbing e wall.. had to catch water bombs thrown by Elwyn from 2nd lvl to first lvl.. make sure cnnt burst.. den catch le can throw back at him.. we only caught 2.. but funnie lehh.. e guys had to take off their shirts.. making it seem very funni.. cos dey so shy.. den their pants like too big for them? haha.. ohh well.. aniwae.. later on when go upstairs while waiting for our turn for e nxt station.. i went to talk to Elwyn.. he allowed me to throw one water bomb at him.. fun lehh.. i held e water bomb but din throw it how saddening..i let abram hv e chance to throw it.. but he MISSED.. argh.. no fun le larrh.. haiish.. sadd sadd.. other stations okay la.. nth much le.. aniwae.. we had skit.. our grp was e funniest.. n stephen got the "BEST ACTOR CUM ACTRESS" award.. hee.. because he had to da ban as abram's GIRLFRIEND.. lol.. hee.. too bad i wasn't there to watch e 'ceremony'.. haha.. e results of who e murderer was.. it was MISS PEACH(emily).. she killed SHANGRI-LA(debbeee) because shangri-la threatened to expose that PROFESSOR PLUM(kenneth) was a GAY.. ahha.. funnie.. they re-enacted the scene.. what the.. i wasn't there.. was in KL for e choir competition.. hahas.. ohh well. i won e TLC award.. how interesting.. guess whyy.. BECAUSE I'M CUTE N ADORABLE N THEY HAD NO CHOICE BUT TO GIVE ME AN AWARD.. cool rite? haha.. i'm speechless too. yeah! haha.. okayy next..`how i miss slping nxt to my baobei darhling n my darhling baobei sehh.. u're honoured.. u're soo lucky i missed slpin nxt to u.. BUT DUN XIANG WAI WAI.. haha..on 9th to 13th dec went to KL la.. for choir competition.. quite cool lehh.. first time i leave sg without my parents.. hee.. so happies.. =) but got a bit homesick lehh.. hahahahaha.. stayed in a 5 star hotel.. cool rite? BUT THE FOOD THERE SUCKS.. OMGOODNESS.. SO BLECH.. dun let e 5 stars fool u.. hee.i stayed in e same room as JOELIN n SHI HUI(sec 1 de).. tot it'll b quite fun.. okayy la.. i tink i kinda annoyed joelin lehh.. hee.. noti rite i.. i'm evil-licious.. hee.. i was lucky.. i got e corner room.. it was BIGGER than others.. most la.. hee.. i'm so lucky.. haha.. we sang for e first dayy.. practiced.. practiced.. nxt dayy.. tiring.. practiced more.. cos it was competition dayy.. dunno if can sae we did our best but. we sound better during practices.. RESULTS- we got a silver C.. mani ppl cried.. but i jus din feel like crying.. no pt la.. u dun cry dey sae u dun care bout choir so is like.. u mus cry den means dat u care for choir mehh? i dun tink so.. wateva.. it's okay wat.. for our school.. international standard we get silver good liao lehh.. we oso not up to e standard of gold yet.. if syf cnnt get gold how to for international de.. mus b more shi ji mahh. ritex?.. watever.. aniwae.. i'm sorry shi hui.. i kinda used her phone lehh.. then talk almost one hour.. so is like.. so paiseh.. n is international de.. so ex.. SOOOOOO SORRY.. i told her i'll pay her expensive fone bill when it comes.. ohh no.. must save up money le.. haiishh.. all my fault.. i so noti.. so evil-licious.. DUI BU QI.. haii.. on e last nite.. me, darhling claudia, huiling, wendy n joelin were in my room playing.. got pillow fight.. got ke-siao-ing.. it was the best nite out of e 4 nites there.. sighh.. went to see fireflies.. so pretty.. like christmas tree.. but ever since i got back from there.. i got lotsa itches.. like mosquito bites.. but doubt it la.. hmm.. up till now.. but now not itchy.. ai yo.. betta wash my jacket too.. we go shopping.. i bought a shirt for myself.. so happi.. nice leh..i up till now still wearing it.. hee.. no la.. since tis afternoon wear de.. not yest.. hee.. nice lehh.. sho happi.. bought stuff for kitty n siokkified too.. n can't rmb who liao.. ohh well.. if i din get aniting for u.. den sryy.. paisehh.. shopping was fun.. overall everything was okay la.. yupp.. so i'm fine wit it.. so todayy.. went for dental wit kitty.. waited so long.. haii.. irritating almost an hour lehh.. wat the toot.. go in onli less den 5 mins.. den she had to go for her chalet.. so we departed at pasir ris mrt.. talked much la.. but is like hmm.. i tink she's lying to me bout lotsa stuff.. n it's kinda heart-breaking.. sighh.. is okayy.. aniwae.. sarah's leaving for england tmr.. so i'm gonna go send her off.. anione who ever even reads tis wanna go pls tell me.. msg or call me.. it's early in e morn.. so u betta call by todayy.. sighh.. doubt anione will do tat aniwae.. wateva.. i dunno lehh.. okayy la.. gonna turn in soon.. my longest blog post ever in my blog history.. lol.. haha.. wateva.. nitex..
Thursday, December 15, 2005;
Monday, November 28, 2005
tis post is dedicated specially to my BAOBEI DARHLING.. sharOn.. haha.. to apologise for not saying hi to her before leaving after main.. din noe she not going for youthh.. hafta send her fren off... X( ai yo.. so must sae sorrie to her yeahh? cos even though i had to rush off to go lunch wit my parents den quickly send my bro off for his badminton training.. n had to meet marie fast fast before that.. it was NO excuse to not even sae a hi to my baobei darhling.. so sowwie yeah my darhling? haha... take cares.. that was fast rite? under 2 to 3 mins.. told u it would b fast.. X) iLu loads too.. haah.. XD (so bhb`woops)*SHARON SORRYE!!! XD
Monday, November 28, 2005;
Tuesday, November 22, 2005
it's 17 mins pass my birthdayy.. tis yr's gonna b different even though it's not gonna happen on my bday.. but the day after.. X).. EXCITED.. lol.. so baichi-ish.. haha.. happy burfday to me.. go slp lerrh.. nitex.. X) God bless this day n 2mr.. thx..
Tuesday, November 22, 2005;
it's 17 mins pass my birthdayy.. tis yr's gonna b different even though it's not gonna happen on my bday.. but the day after.. X).. EXCITED.. lol.. so baichi-ish.. haha.. happy burfday to me! go slp lerrh.. nitex.. X) God bless this day n 2mr.. thx..
Tuesday, November 22, 2005;
Monday, November 21, 2005
well.. to b honest.. i'm starting to wonder if tis bbq is suppose to happen.. i'm starting to wonder if i shld cancel it.. i'm starting to want to back out.. call everyone up n sae it's cancelled.. my excuse.. i've no moneyy.. due to what? bias-ness.. who cares.. it's not exactly that aniwae.. i dunno.. i just wann ppl to come.. is that too much to ask of? no.. not really.. just kinda sad how tings turned out.. i probably would hv known.. but i jus didn't.. whyy... cos i'm not observant enoughh.. the bbq is suppose to b one ting i'm excited.. happy about.. BUT it's oso the one thing that's causing me to b upset.. i really dunno.. i kinda wanna backout.. but i realli wann ppl to come.. i realli wanna c that i hv friends that wil come.. u won't understand wat i mean.. but yeahh.. i dunno.. i've nv dared to ask.. nv dared to just organise something for fear no one would come.. but now.. that it's all there.. i dunno if i should.. i dunno if i wan to.. i just wondering.. was this bbq one of God's plans? i dunno.. mayb.. mayb not.. i'm kinda just troubled.. i could just simply type it down.. but i dun wan to.. i mean i noe no one realli comes here.. but it's just probably time to take tings the wae i can take it.. n if i can't i can't.. admit defeat.. but.. i dunno.. i realli wish i can go back to the me 2 yrs ago.. but i wanna b the me i am todayy.. what's going on? is it called part of growing up? i dun wanna grow up den.. i wanna b young again.. i wanna b the kid who basically asks for everything she desires without being nagged at due to maturity.. spendthrift.. etc.. i dun nid to get the ting.. i just wanna ask for it.. like everything i see in toy stores.. diamonds.. admire them.. w/o buying them.. playing stuff.. doing tings i alwaes wanted to w/o having to b punished n end up being praised.. wat's going on.. wat's going on.. life moves on.. WE CAN'T CONTROL TIME.. i noe.. haii... just let it pass.. second by second.. i wanna run back in time.. pls.. sorry.. i couldn't do anything to save them.. it's all my fault.. i din keep track as a friend.. i suck when it comes to being friends wit me.. i'm so useless.. now she's gone.. i'm gone.. wateva.. i'm just plain dumb.. dun criticise others but myself.. blame myself bcos tis happens kay.. i just wanna go now.. jus wish me a happy birthday in 2 days.. if i'll ever hav a happy one.. so far in my 14 yrs.. i haven't had a birthday wit my full family ard n me being very happy.. okayy.. mayb a few times.. but the last time would prob b 5 yrs back or mroe.. so wateva.. just hope e bbq cheers me up.. X'(
Monday, November 21, 2005;
Friday, November 11, 2005
*if u think that i'm talking about u.. pls dun tink that wayy.. it not necessarily refers to u okayy.. so just dun tink too highly about urself.. u talk to me so nicely yet bhind my back u do this to me.. wateva.. shuddup la.. i wish i din hv to do tis.. but sorry la.. i seriously can't stand the way u tink so highly of urself too.. n u dun have to worry about me.. mayb u dun tink tis wae? but wateva okayy.. i'll take care of my own life.. take care of ur own first den sae me.. okayy.. well.. i wasn't suppose to b that mean.. but i guess i just was.. i just hope that it realli wasn't true.. what that person said.. i hope that person didn't mean it.. but if .... did.. den i can't change anything rite.. anyway.. i have full control over my life.. i'm not some idiot who can't control my emotions now.. so it's like i'm just thinking about things that i did.. etc.. so if YOU were thinking about something else.. den u're wrong.. so dun go around just thinking wat u think is right.. probably after tis our friendship will worsen.. not that i dun care.. but it just will turn out worse if i dun get things straight.. sheesh.. wat a dumb post tis is gonna b but.. it's mine.. so i'll just write whatever that pleases me..n if YOU dun like reading this den dun la kayy.. i write a blog to please myself n not u so.. if u're unhappy u can jolly well leave.. dun wanna continue lerrh.. so if u wanna continue reading den up to u.. dun wanna b a hypocrite but.. take care la.. i still care for you de kayy.. so just jia you oso.. God bless..
Friday, November 11, 2005;
