Sunday, February 20, 2005
now is 2 hrs later.. 4a.m.. bored.. no mood.. quite sleepy.. but i juz have no mood to slp.. is ther such tings? yarhh.. hais.. i reallie dunnoe wat to do.. if sum1 ever reads this.. can do me a favour.. can u like scroll dwn n read e blog below.. n den giv me sum comments.. i feel confused.. darn irritated.. hais.. but mostly.. huRt.. it's been sum time now.. juz din hv time to think abt it.. hais.. den why of all times muz i think abt it now? i dun gettit.. hais.. in ani case.. i wished i had a fren.. i still rmb durin cme lesson wen cher was like askin us to grp our frenz into best frenz, accquaintaces, good frenz, frenz we hang out wid.. i realized sumting.. i juz onli had frenz dat i could hang out wid.. accquaintaces.. juz couldn't fill up e blank which clearly states BEST FRENZ.. i noe i'm pathetic.. tRust me.. all my fRenz r deaR to me.. juz dat honestly.. i juz dun hv a fRen i can talk to.. share my problems with.. oR wat.. hais.. i dun pity myself.. i dun blame anione.. i juz blame myself.. i dun pity myself but i admit i do wonder why i m in tis state sumtimes.. it's a different kinda hurt n pain dat u feel.. whether u noe it or not.. i've learned how to keep to myself.. i've learned mani independant tings.. i realized dat dere wasn't anione dat u can actually lean on in times of nid other den my deaR paPa.. hais.. i dunnoe why.. although it juz ain't fair.. i can't blame anione can i? hais.. sumtimes.. i'm jealous.. why? cos even bitches hv their own cliques they can count on.. hais.. but me? i dunnoe.. juz mayb alone in tis freakkin world.. i realli wanna go to heaven n find my paPa.. i reallie miss him lots.. hais.. i dunnoe wat to sae now.. i juz wanna wish that sum1 will b nice enough.. cum to my blog read everything n finaly giv me sum comments.. i dunnoe. i noe i said i m happie recently.. though for now i'm not.. but i guess it's lyk.. hais.. i will b.. = hais. commentless.. hais.. iwanna juz go off.. walk ard downstairs.. breathe in fresh air.. but i can't even do dat.. cos the air is not fresh.. it's polluted wid smoke.. hais..God nv said life would b fair n a smooth ride.. but he promised he would alwaes b dere.. so i guess.. i juz hafta ask Him to b wid me wen i m goin up the hump.. or even hill hais.. juz dunoe..
``confusedgurl sighs`
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