Saturday, April 09, 2005
bored.. well let's c.. it's like well.. been quite a rough nite yest.. cos of sumtin.. n thru dat experience.. i'm amazed.. seriously.. i dunno wat to say oso lo.. but it's like.. sometimes we jus hafta reflect on ourselves and not jus on others.. rite? it's like today.. sumtin happened too lo.. but is like i dunno.. sometimes.. honestly bahh.. i wish dat if this person doesn't like me.. jus say out n dun pretend bahh.. i dun wanna get hurt by e person by e person being my gd fren den after dat i find out from others dat actually i'm jus a sucker in his/her eyes.. i mean.. wat's the pt of lying and hurting not only others but yourself? i dunno bahh.. tis gurll.. i dunno wat's exactly in her mind.. she wanna act close to me den in front of me do idiotic stuff which i totally detest.. but i can't blame her can i? i'm jus being too sensitive.. sighhs.. but nvm.. dun bother bout her.. got other tings to tink about.. now i still tryin to figure out wat to write for my compo.. no inspiration lo.. is like dunno how to do lo.. hand in on mon den is like 2mr no time de?? so how nehh.. i dunno oso... dot.. 2 days in a row i was misinterpreted.. n bcos of that.. first time i kena scolded by cher.. 2nd time kena pushed.. almos strangled.. n also pulled by the ear.. i mean like tis isn't fair.. n twice i din get a chance to explain lo.. so i meann.. suckkk.. totally.. so yepp.. i dunno wat to sae le la.. i feel hurt.. but it's okayy.. God will heal my heart de.. mus have faith.. pray den leave tis place.. mus go find inspiration for my compo mahh.. lol.. okok.. fine..
Dear paPa..
thanks for guiding me thru the times that i tot i could not.. seriously it was You who helped me and guided me.. thanks a lot.. well.. i commit my friends into Your hands.. i pray tat You'll hold them tightly in Your arms.. guide them thru their darkest hour too.. they really need You.. mayb even more than i do.. i also pray tat You'll show them Your abundant love and care.. shower them with Your blessings too.. then one day when dey experience Your love.. they'll know that You were alwaes there beside them and that they'll learn more of Your word and will yearn more and more of You.. and finally.. they'll b saved and will b able to enter the gates of Your kingdom.. now i wanna pray for Your forgiveness.. Lord.. i seek Your forgiveness for all the sins that i have commited.. i'm sorry for making You sad or angry.. sins like lying.. cheating.. whatever it may b.. pls forgive me.. i reallie wanna enter the gates of Your kingdom and worship You in front of Your throne.. my heart is crying out to You.. pls hear my prayer.. now i haf to thank You for all that You have done for me.. even the littlest tings that You have done n i have nt noticed.. thank You.. a roof to live under.. friends that i have bside me.. and even You for being there for me.. every thing You have done for me.. i sincerely thank you wit all my heart.. mind n soul.. i love You..
In Jesus name i pray..
AMEN!!!
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