Wednesday, April 13, 2005
i now pretty sian bahh.. hmm.. well.. today quite a gd day for me bahh.. kept laughin throughout the whole dae.. hee.. lotsa ppl oso sae i siao today.. but they shld have seen me on sunday lo.. so much worse.. at least i'm laughin rite ppl.. haha.. hmm.. 2mr gonna hv bout 2 tests.. suppose to be 3 but they sae dun hv math den dun hv rite? dot.. recently..i seriously sot lo.. but suddenly todae.. i decided to study hard le.. onli for one reason..to get gd grades so tat i can change my hp.. =x nth betta to do rite.. well.. no choice mahh.. but i promise to start studyin hard by 2mr and get freakin good grades for my eng.. math.. chi.. at least? i hope so eng wus suppose to b my strongest sub but now.. hmm.. dunno wat to sae.. but chi recently i betta le.. onli ting now is to try to hand in all my work by tis wk.. tough but will try de.. i wanna get real good grades to change my fone!! 2pid ting to do but yea.. my motivation.. serious.. i'm nuts yes.. but i dun mind if i can change my freakin fone mahh.. haha.. well.. i miss sum1 now.. sadly.. but yes i do.. i'm being pathetic these daes.. seriously.. but i wanna change now.. n sadly.. my attitude is gettin from bad to worse.. onli good ting? well.. i admit it.. mus try to b !CHANGED!.. las yr's youth camp theme.. yepp.. so is like lemme c.. i'm gonna study my guts out 2mr.. n den sat try to go out.. den after dat cum home study den let's c.. dinner.. watch tv.. blahh.. sunday.. whole dae in church.. go hm.. hv dinner.. den slp? yepp.. den weekdays..try to concentrate on studyin.. i'm finally gettin dwn to business le.. good rite?? hopefully.. go print a schedule for myself.. good idea rite.. i tink so.. onli ting is hopefully i follow it lahh.. hmm.. mus learn to stop using singlish.. hee.. my msn still cnnt use lo.. so freaked out by it le.. so sadd.. i tink my frens in sch seriously dun like me.. i oso can't do aniting.. but sad bout it.. n is like sum1.. is like saes she understands me a freakin lot.. but is like.. end up wat she sae makes my opinion of her turn into shyt.. i dun wan to la.. but is like wat the lo.. nvm bahh.. jus pray dat she'll shut her trap.. i miss u!! haha.. won't reveal who's that though.. hee.. *hushed up*
deaR God..
i thank you deeply for everything u have ever done for me.. even the bad times i had were jus trials so dat i may prepare to enter the gates of ur kingdom.. i love u ever so muchh.. thx for alwaes being there for me.. u'll never leave me nor forsake me.. i thank you for dat word so muchh.. rite now.. i jus pray dat u'll help me to b a betta fren to others instead of jus sum1 whom dey c s an xtra n take me for granted.. i seriously wanna have a real fren.. i dun wann sum person who makes use of me when he/she is jus like alone.. make me go wid him/her.. den is like.. wat's the pt.. sighhs.. but is like.. i'm okayy wid dat.. i meann.. i experience it.. so i probably understand.. but pls help me to b a betta fren to others.. thank you soo muchh.. i realli hope tat u'll open the eyes of my heart.. and let me c u.. also regarding tat person tat u noe.. i pray dat u'll help her to understand certain tings.. it's hard for me to do tis u noe.. but i can try? yeah.. i'm sooo sorry for too mani tings in life but.. we jus hafta move on.. now i pray dat u'll forgive me of al my sins and lemme enter the gates of ur kingdom too.. i love u and thank u soo muchh.. hallelujah..
in Jesus name
aMen..
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