Sunday, October 09, 2005
okayy.. well.. life kinda pretty sux now.. it's all becos of a small lil incident according to HER.. she kept smsing me vulgarities.. e.g bimbo.. bitch.. idiotic.. asshole.. f*** n so on n so forth.. fine.. whatever.. but SHE doesn't hafta indirectly insult either me or my parents yeah? please.. if YOU dunno how my parents teach me den dun comment.. they probably teach my so much better than YOURS becos they dun teach me how to use vulgarities on others n how to b cowardd..but whatever.. SHE's trying to spin a story out of nothing.. if SHE is able to do that.. i'll say SHE's superr pro.. becos so mani of my frens saw what happened n can b witness.. so wateva.. let HER do what SHE wants.. if SHE enjoys it.. but too badd becos i'm gonna complain to the teacher who apparently thinks highly of HER which is so stupidd..but fine.. SHE wanna talk bout religion.. let's talk about HER being a catholic using vulgarities.. AND thinking that SHE's so greatt.. wanna act bigg.. SHE kinda makes me feel like despising catholics BUT i won't becos there are so mani other catholics out there who can behave so muchh betta than how SHE's behaving now.. n they shouldn't b despised just because of HER.. it's too unfair.. so i shan't.. n i won't.. *
talked bout some stuff yest nite.. n it kinda made me reflect abit la.. quite true.. if u're a christian and u make ur life sound so depressing.. how does it proof to non-believers that God works in our lives.. that our lives would be better than others.. what's the diff between christianity n other religion..(yes it was kinda naggy.. to hear it in middle of nite somemore.. make me wanna slp.. OPPS.. no la.. it made sense so nt so badd..) well.. the thing is that.. probably the problem is that we dun let go to let God.. so He can't work in us to make our lives betta..to make us live our lives happier.. etc.. mayb true enuff.. so mani tings r true.. (n though he seriously made me kinda irritated with some of the things he said..) but overall sometimes things dun alwaes go ur way or life would hv been perfect yeahh? i admit.. i've changed since feb.. becos something happened.. so i remembered whenn.. sighh.. but u noe.. mayb the care n concern that each person yearns from each other.. it doesn't alwaes come to u.. u hafta seach for it.. sorry that sometimes everything hurts a lot.. it hurts so much that i try to control n u dunno.. but it isn't aniones fault.. bcos we all know what was happening from the beginning.. sadly.. *now i'm trying to forget him n just remain as friends.. no more n no less.. although things may not come my way todayy.. mayb 2mr something will just go my way to be perfect even for just one dayy.. but now.. in e mean time.. i'm gonna continue wit my walk wit God.. n i dun wanna stray away from Him no more.. i wanna go backk.. bcos i miss Him a lot.. after weeks of taking things in my own hands.. i finally understood that i need Him more.. so i'm gonna start getting more determined to go back to the way things were before even if it means i have to forget HIM.. yes.. becos God is so muchh more important.. n i'm guilty to say that i'm onli realising it again.. once more.. after going through a time i know i cannot walk alone.. i nid to walk wit Him.. n He'll alwaes be there for me s He has alwaes done.. lemme draw near to You once more.. go back to You.. n love You like i use to.. becos You sent Your Son to die on the cross although He hasn't done anything against Your will.. n Your commands.. so draw me close to You once more.. i yearn to be back in Your presence.. love veRa-..
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