Saturday, November 05, 2005
ahh yes.. i said i would update on my streaming results.. sheesh.. they aren't all that good.. i expected that result but i got more or less what i wanted but i just realised what missing your friends meant.. i guess this feelings is called `missing some people who matter in your life`.. more or less so.. i got into 3e6.. sadd la.. is probably bcos of the ppl there.. that's whyy i dun wanna go dere? but it's kinda DEmoralizing to know that u [or rather i in this case] are going to the last class in the whole stream.. sheesh.. all bcos of math i predict.. my prediction should b more or less rite somehow.. i dun wanna b promoted to sec 3 express anymore.. i wanna retain.. i dun like this feeling.. sheesh.. nvm.. make more friends? i dunno.. whateva..REGRETS dun wanna make regrets.. or rather DON'T make them..it's hurtful.. i wish i din do this.. i wish i din do that.. i wanna sae sorry.. but SORRY is an empty 5 letter word that's used s and when a person feels like it.. it has no more meaning to it.. okayy.. life doesn't suck when things go badd.. it's just exaggeration.. i wanna go back to the wae things were just a few days ago.. when everything.. was just alrite.. i wish i were a betta friend to others.. when i tell someone.. "you know.. she can onli b a friend.. at most good friend.. BUT she can't b a best friend.. " i guess i alwaes knew that applied to me.. onli i didn't wanna admit it.. i wanna b a betta friend.. but how can i? can someone teach me?? doubt it.. e.g this gurl i noe.. she makes friends easily n everyone loves her.. not in a bitchy wayy.. in a nice wayy.. even me.. BUT me..? i've got the same friends s her.. but i dun get the same reaction.. it's her personality.. her character.. n her love for GOD.. she's got that passion that i yearn.. that longing that i hope for.. even though there r setbacks but sighh.. she's got that faith coming on.. i dunno wat to sae.. jealous mayb? envious more like it.. well.. each of us are different.. i dun yearn to b like her.. but i long to b a betta person.. AND i know the wae to do that is TAKING A STEP CLOSER TO GOD.. TO LOVE HIM MORE EACH DAY.. TO LONG TO WORSHIP HIM ALL DAY N NITE.. i love God.. but i drift.. comeback.. drift.. comeback.. at this rate.. i'll never reach HIM..
wanna go now.. just think about all these makes me weary.. n i'm sorry to everyone.. i've somehow hurt those i love n cherish unknowingly.. SORRY.. forgive me..
`draw me close to u..`never let me go..`i lay it all down again..`to hear u say that i'm ur fren........
Saturday, November 05, 2005;
